lifewithomg

I know, I know. I’m technically not a college dropout. I guess you could say that I’m just taking an extended vacation until next year, right? Wrong. That is far from the truth! That is not why I did this. Honestly, it wasn’t even my idea. I had every intent to go back to school and get back in my usual grind of “all work and no play keeps the social life away”. I complained about homework and exams just like the typical college students, but I actually loved school! I always have! I guess it’s always been a secret because if you don’t complain about something in college, then you’re not truly living the “struggle life”. But make no mistake, I was definitely sitting in the front row of the struggle bus!

You know what the worst part is? I didn’t even blink twice. I didn’t have to pray about my decision because I knew that this was what God had been trying to tell me for months. I didn’t tell anyone that I had been looking at other colleges since January because I assumed they wouldn’t believe me. I didn’t even believe myself! Like I was going to do ANYTHING that daring and out of my comfort zone, especially when I was so close to being done!! Though when I finally made the decision, I cried for two days. I suck at leaving my comfort zone.

I took this time off to rediscover what my purpose is in this world. More importantly, who God intended me to be. Somehow, over the course of three years I’ve managed to forget who I am. I’ve been gliding through life, day after day, longing to find a way to make each one go by quicker. What was I trying to achieve? I have NO CLUE what I’m doing. I don’t know where I will or what I will be doing next year and that’s what scares me the most. What are my talents? Aspirations? Dreams?

I want to look back on this semester and say, “wow, this was when I decided to live my life again. This was the day that I chose to be Me.”

Goodbye, negativity. So long, restlessness. Farewell, unworthiness. You are no longer a part of my new life! This is an adventure in the wilderness, away from my comfort zone, to discover just how amazing God made me.